feeling good.

okayyy it's been awhile, huh? sooo this week was fantastic. full of drama, but fantastic. i've been having problems with a certain friend for awhile now and so i kinda made a new one. we hang out all the time. little did i know my other friend hates this other girl for some unseen reason. lets call my old friend anne* and my new friend kate*. so kate was interested in anne's boyfriend. and anne's boyfriend we'll call jake*. so jake kinda liked kate too. and while anne was out of town, jake took kate to a movie. nothing happened, but it was a date. and girlfriends don't like it when their boyfriend's take other girls on dates.. so for a couple weeks now i have been in this awkward position of picking sides... and i think i took kate's. not because i agree with her or anne... but only because we get along really well and have a lot in common. so this whole month has been kinda like a teen movie. less glamorous but the same basic plot... kinda ridiculous and random but i thought i'd share that.

*name's have been changed to protect the innocent.. LOL

okay so on wednesday this girl stole my shoes outta my bag. i was a little upset because they were cute shoes and she just took them like it was no big deal. if she needed shoes i would have given her some, she didn't have to steal. so she denied that she took them and when i looked closer, i saw that she mutilated them.. she took off the bows and they almost didn't look like my shoes. but i knew they were. soooo being "the better person" i was gonna forgive her... it didn't work out, i walked up and said, " you shouldn't have taken the bows off, now they are so ugly! not even worth wearing". i felt so good because i made her feel bad. what a terrible reason to feel good about myself. i felt like a jerk after i thought about it. that night i felt like i needed to apologize. but i wasn't really sure what for. i mean she should apologize too, right? well she didn't so i went up to her today and said, " sorry for making a big deal of everything. i'd really like to put it behind us and make an effort to be friends...?" she accepted my apology which was good and i felt better... still t=didn't get my shoes though:( oh well.

so back to my other drama that isn't even really mine. on thursday, me and kate and anne got called into the principles office. she noticed we weren't getting along... so she made us talk everything out... i wasn't sure why i was there.. the drama was between the other two girls. oh well. she made us hug and apologize, then we left. it felt like it didn't do anything at all! we were not friends. it was sad but it was fact. it was a sad fact. so today i go into the bathroom and anne is in there. we start talking and realize we still care about each other. sooo she starts talking to kate later. and i know we aren't best friends or anything, but i think maybe the talk helped. we all just had to sleep on it. i feel good.[:

what didn't we do??

spring break. ahh the sweet words that bring such a pleasant feeling inside! i mean really, after spring break, the rest of the year does not even matter! it's so exciting to be three-fourths of the way done with the eleventh grade. no more silly teachers for 3 whole months of summer bliss(: i got to school today and received a newsletter for my parents. i, of course, read it first. the first line read, "first of all, i want to say how excited we all are to be entering the last nine weeks of school...". i hadn't realized how fast the school year had gone by. i think i read the first lilne about 7 times before i finished the letter haha. but it is extremely exciting to see such a great year coming to a fantastic close(:

but i gotta back up a bit and tell you about my spring break. so i'm on my way to church a couple sundays ago and i get a text from my best friend kennedy. she says, " hey i need to talk to you tonight, k?".. this makes me nervous for some reason lol. whenever someone wants to talk its usually something bad so i kept coming up with silly scenerios... why would she be mad at me??? hmm...? so i get to church and she says, " aly, would you like to come to disneyland with me for spring break?" ummm YES!!! haha so i talk to my parents and we work it out so i can go. it's a 14 hour drive :/ that's a long time! so we get to kenn's grandparent house late saturday night. we get up early for church on sunday. it was a terrific first day. soaking up the california sunshine! we went to in and out, we went to the mexican market and got candy. it was spectacular. then came monday morning--disneyland day!! we went on every ride and did all the fun stuff. it was amazing. the firework show changed my life[: it really was the happiest place on earth. i saw this one girl crying and was like holy frick, shut up and be happy! you're in freakin disneyland!! haha oh well. you just can't please some people... so day two was california adventure. also amazing! the best part was the room with all the screens with movies! ahhh lifechanging(: and the drawing class was superb! they sure know how to run a theme park there!! oh and the electrical parade was insane! i loved it. i saw cinderella and she was absolutely beautiful!!! day three was dave and busters. i went there got the t shirt(: haha but really, i played house of dead four and made it to level 2 where i got killed by a zombie spider. it was intense. so we played all these awesome games and had a phenomenal time! thursday was just the girls at knotts berry farm! fun stuff right there! we did all the rides a few times because there was barely a line! we got custom leather bracelets and they're pretty beast if i do say so[: so on thursday night my big brother drove up from san diego to hang out with me and on friday we went to the beach. at the beach we caught crabs and a starfish! it was awesome. we played in the ocean and flew kites. it was a wonderful day. and to end such a wonderful day, peter(my big brother) took the girls to midieval times to see the show. it was a super cool show and we all had a great time. then on saturday we all just chilled by the pool all day long. i got a tan and that night found out it was a burn!! ouch lol. but saturday night i beat everyone at texas hold 'em and i learned how to play risk. sunday we got up and left early in the morning. thank goodness kyle aka harry potter, was texting me to keep me company for the the long trip. truth or dare can in fact be played via text(:

my week went amazing and i had the best time of my life. it was genius[:

delight thyself

you know that feeling? the one where you should have been paying attention but you weren't so you might have missed something important. i feel like that all the time. God has been good and He is good all the time. i have been so blessed to grow up in church. even if i don't decide to be a missionary to africa, church has taught me how to be a pure and true young lady. i have learned to have class. i have learned to have dignity. and i have learned to stand up for what i believe in. i've learned to speak the truth, even if my voice comes out shaky. the truth is the most important thing. if you aren't honest, we aren't friends. that does not mean;however, that you go around being brutally honest with people.... i learned all of these things but the important part is what i've missed. i've learned it is good to be this woman but i missed the part where they tell me how... it isn't as easy as it sounds to be a virtuous woman. in proverbs 31 it says," who can find a virtuous woman? for her price is far above rubies." that in itself says how hard it is to be virtuous. rubies are rare and precious. as is the virtuous woman. i want to be that perfect girl and i'm going to work very hard on that. everyone must work at their walk with God constantly, but isn't it a much more rewarding life? in psalms, it says," delight thyself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart"... pretty simple right? do what God wants, and He'll give you what you always wanted. it sounds so simple so why is it so difficult? i decided i need to walk closer with God. i will delight myself in Him so he can bless my life. He wouldn't give your heart desires that He had no intention of fulfilling, right? i challenge every lady to read proverbs 31. it will be such a challenge to you to be more holy. and in the end, if you want a good guy, he's gonna want a good girl.

we should all be hermits(:

what is up with people who forget who their friends are just because a boy gives them attention? why do they just forget us until said boy dumps their sorry butt? i have this friend who is the most boy crazy girl I've ever met. and incredibly fickle. one day she likes this boy but the next day she likes that boy. it's confusing and ridiculous. she has finally found one boy to have a relationship with. but they are always fighting. whats the point of being together if you don't even like each other most of the time? she ditches us all the time for a 2-timing jerk. he is freaking cheating on her and i told her that but she doesn't believe me. what the heck is up with that? i love her but sometimes she makes me so mad. and now i think she's mad at me because i hang out with a girl she doesn't like. which is stupid. i thought when i left junior high that i left the drama with it. this is why everyone should live as hermits. the end. thanks for letting me vent.

so it is friday today. which just so happens to be my second favorite day! crazy i know! anyways, being that it is friday, i had a half day at school. as i do every friday. it was nice. homeroom, then home economics, then senior seminar, then chapel. the end(: after school i went to a doctors appointment with my nieces and nephew. angela had to get THREE shots:((( i had to hold her down, it was very sad! after she got her bandaides on, through all the tears she said, " that lady shot me!!!" whilst pointing at the nurse. it was really adorable so i laughed. when i laughed she looks at me with very grouchy eyebrows and says, " it's not funny guys!" which, of course, made me laugh harder! what a goober(: i love her incredible bunches though! after the doctors, i stopped at 7 11 for a slurpee. they did not have any good flavors!!!! so i chose blackberry-lime.... it tasted like cough syrup! eww! so i ended up spilling it and not having to finish it. thank goodness! after i got home, i got on facebook and told a guy i barely know an embarrassing story about a guy i thought was cute and it turns out he is like best friends with this cute guy. ugh why do these things happen to me! so apparently, he's going to tell him all about it. oh well, maybe it will work out in my favor(: or not haha. i want to watch a chick flick right now. hmmm which one though? i'm insanely bored right now so this post feels like it is going nowhere.. since you are the only one that reads it kyle, i don't really mind that its going nowhere hehe. peace!

would you go with me?

i made a decision... a big one. i love my Heavenly Father soooo much. more than anything else i've ever known. He is the only reason i continue to exist. He is my reason for breathing. He has a perfect plan for my life. even though i haven't seen his plans, i know they are beautiful. i can't wait for him to unveil the wonderful will He has for me for me to live.

so we had an awesome man of God come to our church for a conference. his name is Dr. Jack Schaap. he came for two days and preached 3 times. while sitting in the services, God was moving in my heart the entire time. on tuesday evening he preached a message about loving other people. to reach people for God, we have to have a "so loved" kind of love. as in "for God so loved the world, he gave his only begotten son that whosoever believeth in him shall not perish but have ever lasting life. John 3:16". we all need to tell people about Jesus. have we all just forgotten about the verses that say go out and share the gospel of Jesus Christ?? we need to be christians who love God and show it through our lives. are we aware that "christian" translates to "Christ-like" or "little Christs" now the pharisees meant this as an insult but i would never in my life take offense if someone called me a christian. i am proud to be a christian and i would hope it shows through how i act. i hope someday i live up to the name "christian"...

back to the decision i made... i decided to give my life and my whole self over to God. i will be attending bible college in fall '11. i will serve God for my whole life. i know all he wants is a willing servant and that is what i am, a willing sesrvant(: i can't wait to see what God has in store for my life and all the people i get to tell about Jesus. there is nothing better than telling someone how to get to heaven. and i know now who i am going to fall in love with. i need to fall in love with God before anyone else. He knows me better than anyone for He is my creator. and He is my father. He loves me already and i love Him. I am so excited about my christian life. what an amazing conference with awesome decisions made for God. we are surely blessed by God to have such moving thing happen in Grand View Baptist Church.

it's the thought that counts=)

today is my niece's birthday. i forgot. she turned three. let me give you an idea of my week before you judge me for forgetting...Monday: school, the worst day of school I've had in awhile... too much homework. then i got home to so much loudness that i just zoned for awhile. went to a doctor app. for my 5 1/2 month old nephew. he has RSV, pneumonia, ,and bronchitis. pretty sick kid, eh? Tuesday: i wake up sick. yuck! it was not fair at all. i just wanted to go to school like everybody else but no, i get to be sick. i get to watch my niece at home because why should she go to daycare when she's got a babysitter right here at home? that was my mother's logic anyways... i watch TV and facebook all day. what an awful way to spend the day! Wednesday: my mother takes baby nephew to docs... he wasn't doing very well. they take him by ambulance to Emmanuel hospital. he gets an oxygen tube and an iv... poor little guy! i am still sick so i am home(yet again) with the niece. we hang out all day like vegetables. and not the food kind of vegetables. the brain dead kind. man, i hate being sick! Thursday(today): i wake up a lot at night. i get up at 6 to get older niece ready for school. prompting her,"zoey, where is your school uniform???"... to which she replies,"if i knew that, i wouldn't be standing here in my slip!".. that 6 year old has a mouth on her! oh well... eventually, i find her uniform and get it on her. she cant find her black shoes and ends up wearing these weird pink and black ones that do not even match! she's happy I'm happy. at 6:30 am i put on Eloise so i could go to bed and she would be entertained... at around 7:30 am rose shows up to take zoey to school. I'm happy about this because zoey whines a lot.. it's nice to have the peace and quiet. Angela(the 3 year old) and me watch 16 candles and superstar... i feel so dead i just want to get better and go to school!.. when my dad gets home from work he says, "oh my baby girl is 3 today! i remember when you were a tiny little baby like Eddie! happy birthday, sweetie!" and my stomach drops. i forgot my niece's birthday! what kind of aunt am i? so i hurry to the pantry to find cake stuff! i find butter pecan cake and no frosting.. i find marshmallow creme and i get an idea... it was a bad one ha ha. the cake tasted nasty and the "frosting" made it fall apart.... but i was happy to see a smile on baby girls face! she didn't care that it wasn't good. she knows the real truth. it truly is the thought that counts.

i am computer challenged

i cannot figure out how to get my page to match itself. as much as i'd like my page to look cool, it won't let me do it. if you are reading this, and thinking, "man, this girl doesen't know how to match" i just want you to know that i do know how to match. but i can't figure out how to download the right template. or whatever it's called. i guess it just matches my clashing personality. i like my random thoughts and i want to keep thinking them.

to fall in love is human

i've always wondered how it feels to fall in love. not the middle school stuff you know, i like you do you like me? that stuff is ridiculous. it's boring. it's the rush of telling someone you love them raw and passionately that makes it so irresistable. to be in love is to put yourself out there. to be vulnerable. to be available to get hurt but to trust them not to hurt you. when you tell somebody you love them, it's like an adrenaline thing. it's the feeling when your heart stops beating for a moment. and in that moment, the most amazing feelings happen. feelings better than knowing they love you too. it's the feeling that you don't know. the insecurity of the moment. it's the beautiful moment when you aren't in control of anything. you don't know if you will spend the next few days in complete bliss or crying your eyes out. that is the moment i want. i want to let evrything go and just fall. fall into the arms of someone i can trust to catch me.

i wanna grow up

oh man, the bittersweet days of high school....the name calling, the getting laughed at for taking a fashion risks, the school uniform, the (not so) wonderful hot lunch food, the rejection, the organized sports... what is it about high school that makes me want to leave so bad?

as much as i enjoy all of those things(sarcasm), i cannot wait for it to be over. why do teachers assign homework? is it to torture us? i feel like that is their motive for assigning it. but for reals guys, we do enough school work at school, why must we spend our free time at home doing the blasted stuff too? and why do you expect us to not do it in class? do you really think we are gonna go home and stay off of facebook and whatnot so we can finish your precious assignment? because sweetie, your badly mistaken if you think we would actually do it rather than complain about it for hours on end.

and they say it's nothing compared to college:(

when will the madness end?!