feeling good.

okayyy it's been awhile, huh? sooo this week was fantastic. full of drama, but fantastic. i've been having problems with a certain friend for awhile now and so i kinda made a new one. we hang out all the time. little did i know my other friend hates this other girl for some unseen reason. lets call my old friend anne* and my new friend kate*. so kate was interested in anne's boyfriend. and anne's boyfriend we'll call jake*. so jake kinda liked kate too. and while anne was out of town, jake took kate to a movie. nothing happened, but it was a date. and girlfriends don't like it when their boyfriend's take other girls on dates.. so for a couple weeks now i have been in this awkward position of picking sides... and i think i took kate's. not because i agree with her or anne... but only because we get along really well and have a lot in common. so this whole month has been kinda like a teen movie. less glamorous but the same basic plot... kinda ridiculous and random but i thought i'd share that.

*name's have been changed to protect the innocent.. LOL

okay so on wednesday this girl stole my shoes outta my bag. i was a little upset because they were cute shoes and she just took them like it was no big deal. if she needed shoes i would have given her some, she didn't have to steal. so she denied that she took them and when i looked closer, i saw that she mutilated them.. she took off the bows and they almost didn't look like my shoes. but i knew they were. soooo being "the better person" i was gonna forgive her... it didn't work out, i walked up and said, " you shouldn't have taken the bows off, now they are so ugly! not even worth wearing". i felt so good because i made her feel bad. what a terrible reason to feel good about myself. i felt like a jerk after i thought about it. that night i felt like i needed to apologize. but i wasn't really sure what for. i mean she should apologize too, right? well she didn't so i went up to her today and said, " sorry for making a big deal of everything. i'd really like to put it behind us and make an effort to be friends...?" she accepted my apology which was good and i felt better... still t=didn't get my shoes though:( oh well.

so back to my other drama that isn't even really mine. on thursday, me and kate and anne got called into the principles office. she noticed we weren't getting along... so she made us talk everything out... i wasn't sure why i was there.. the drama was between the other two girls. oh well. she made us hug and apologize, then we left. it felt like it didn't do anything at all! we were not friends. it was sad but it was fact. it was a sad fact. so today i go into the bathroom and anne is in there. we start talking and realize we still care about each other. sooo she starts talking to kate later. and i know we aren't best friends or anything, but i think maybe the talk helped. we all just had to sleep on it. i feel good.[: